What is the meaning as well as purpose of life? Is it to spend time around your loved ones or is it to find your passion and chase it no matter where it leads you? This is the dilemma I have been facing for the past few years as I live overseas and my family and friends die without me there.
I’ve lost my father, a few nice friends, and now possibly my uncle while I am over in Europe trying to make an impact in this world with my music. I could go back home and help my friend doing dual fuel plan sales and give up my dreams of playing music for the rest of my life, but would I be happy? I know my mom is who I miss the most, and one afternoon she won’t answer my phone calls ever again. My dad ran a local business as well as made a pile of cash selling A/C systems as well as helping people with their heating as well as cooling troubles, even though I wonder if he was even happy. I feel the most satisfaction when I am playing music with my bandmate, and I wonder how I would feel if I left it behind me. But I also feel satisfaction seeing my mom for breakfast next to their heating and cooling plan keeping us all cozy while we talk about life and the world of A/C technology. I don’t know what I should do, but for now I am overseas doing what I like and having some fun in the process. I know life will guide me.